while i'm sleeping

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As a child I spent many nights sleeping in the middle of my parents.  I soon began to get older, bigger... So my mom would make me sleep on their floor.  But I didn't care.  I just wanted to be sleeping with people near me.  

I have never been able to sleep well.  Whether that was from nightmares, anxieties rolling through my head, or creative ideas.  But the nightmares were what caused me to run to my parents room, tap on my sleeping mothers shoulder, and quietly sobbing ask, "Can I sleep in your bed?"  As I have gotten older, I have of course learned to deal with them better and just go back to sleep, but for some reason so many of these nightmares feel SO real to me.  So real that it would emotionally effect me the next day as if the nightmare had really taken place.  

Well, finally the nightmares went away.  For a few short years I didn't remember much of anything that happened in my sleep.  That is until lately.  I have been waking up in the middle of the night with horrible nightmares and then I instantly get online to see what the meaning of that dream is.  

All I can say is that I am so happy I don't have to just try and fall back asleep on my own anymore.  I get to turn to my sweet husband, and as soon as i feel him near my side all of my scared emotions vanish.

And sometimes I get really awesome dreams.  Like I am in a show again in High School and we are doing all the dance moves and in my dream every move is right and correct as to what it was in real life five years ago.   But somehow when I am awake I couldn't give you eight counts of any dance in high school.  Our minds are strange things... Remembering things in our sleep that we can't when we are awake, foreseeing things in the future, getting messages and answers to our prayers...

Do you guys ever have strange dreams or nightmares that feel SO REAL? Dreams are a crazy thing... sometimes I love em, sometimes I hate em.  I just hope I have a happy, bubbly, hopeful one tonight..