Lately I have felt somewhat lost and uncertain of how to get to where I want in life, simply because I finally realized I had to choose a path for my life. The scary part is not knowing if I will end up at that destination I choose. Will my decision be a detour just to teach me lessons in life and will that choice become a regret?
At this time in life especially, people have to take big leaps of faith and step into the dark trusting that what happens is for the best.
I recently read an amazing talk given at the LDS General Young Women Meeting titled, "Your Happily Ever After". Dieter F Uchtdorf explains that Heavenly Father has created a map for us, He knows the way, He is our beloved Father who seeks our good and happiness. The map is available to all. All you have to do is trust your Heavenly Father. Trust him enough to follow his plan.
So, after a lot of prayer, I realized that what I wanted for my future was not on the map that my Heavenly Father has for me. I finally trust that I will be a happier person doing what I know he wants me to do with my life. All I want in life is to do everything I can to make the people around me happy, and make a difference in their lives. I have decided to change my Major so that when I graduate I will be able to teach children, and make that difference. I feel a lot of comfort with my decision and am ready to take a step in the dark.
I am grateful that I have supportive friends and family. I know they are all here holding my hand as I take this step in my life and I wouldn't be able to do it with out them.
Sometimes the Lord has unimaginably better plans for your life than you could have ever predicted. I am happier than ever right now in my life, and a few months ago I never would have even imagined a human could feel this much happiness.
Yes, life is full of extremely hard obstacles (I know I have been there, and I know there are plenty more ahead of me). But, there are so many great things in life that make the hard times bare-able. This week I am challenging myself to focus on what I am grateful for in my life.
I am grateful for:
1. My parents. Their love, support, talents, and patience
2.My siblings. Nobody can make me laugh like my brothers. Their artistic and musical talents are unbelievable. I often feel unworthy to be in my family. And I love my sister more than she will ever know.
3. My best friends old and new). Tawni. Syd. Kate. Megan. Zach. Jordan.
4.My amazing new roommates.
6.The police man that let me out of a ticket yesterday.
7.The beautiful flowers. mountains. trees. and nature in general.
8.The tandem bike that entertained Jord and I yesterday.
9.My grandparents. They are so giving, loving, and strong (even when ill. I found out yesterday my grandpa has cancer. I can't imagine life without his spirit. Pray for him.)
11.Music. Guitar. Piano. etc..
12.Art. design. Handmade jewelry.
13.Photographs that capture great moments for memories.
16. Fruit.strawberries. pineapple. Mango. pomegranate.
20. my doggie. Even though he is gone, I often think about him. I still love him and am grateful for him.
This list could go on and on. What an amazing life I have been blessed with! We don't always know what it is around the bend in the road, but we know its whats best.