Pennsylvania, Pregnancy and Miscarriage

For the month of September, Jordan did an away rotation in Hershey, PA.  I desperately wanted to see this charming little town I have heard so much about so for his last week there the kids and I hoped on a plane to visit Amish country. Pennsylvania was SO gorgeous!  

I was so excited when we arrived at the house Jord was staying at and they had a gorgeous garden and CHICKENS.  They even gave us fresh eggs whenever we desired... my kids ate that right up (both the food and the joy ;)). 

A few weeks before our visit to PA I had gone back and forth to the hospital with some heavy bleeding (I was around what i thought was 8 weeks pregnant).  The last time I went to the hospital (two weeks before visit), they told me that my pregnancy was not viable becuase my HCG levels were not rising and they had yet to see a heatbeat (All this happening while hurricane Irma hit and I was all alone in a hospital in Jacksonville completely devestated!)

. Fast-forward to the day before leaving for PA... I had a followup appointment with my Doctor to make sure my body was healing and had expelled the baby fully.  As soon as the nurse started the ultrasound she looked at me and said, "You are not going to believe this.. but there is a baby in there with a healthy heartbeat!"

Yep.  I was SHOCKED.  I was so excited to tell jordan but I wanted to surprise him in person so I had to sort of beat around the bush on the phone when I talked to him about the appointment.  

So when we arrived to the house I had him sit down with the kids and gave him a present of the positive pregnancy test he saw a month before and included the new ultrasound.  He was shocked and Myra was BEYOND thrilled  and yelled, "thank you, Jesus, thankyou SO much!" 

We basked in the joy and I smiled walking around town with that pregnancy glow walking through farmers markets.  But then.... the morning sickness hit.  And it hit hard.  After the first two days, I spent the remainder of the trip glued to the couch and toilet.  All of our plans out the window! 

We did get to have our traditional first day of fall doughnuts (usually scones, but when you're traveling you let things slide a bit haha).  

We also got to go to the Hershey factory and even got to create our own Chocolate bars.

This is a trip I will never forget.

That sweet babe in my tummy ended up passing away a month later, so the time I had with him will always have a special place in my heart along with the memories I made while he was there.... even though the majority of that time I was beyond ill! 

morning picking berries

We found the sweetest spot for berry picking our first year here in Orlando and while we have found other places, we always end up coming back to this one at least once during berry picking season.  Our favorite part about Rucks U-pick is the adorable red house and the little farm land it sits on.  They have chickens roaming around and goats that love the kids.... you kinda can't beat it.  

Every time we go we leave saying, "I can't wait to someday have a place like that!"  And maybe that is some big dreams that will never really happen, but there is nothing wrong with dreaming, right?